is 3am nw...

i still cant slp...

dont kno y...

dont feel sleepy at all...

been behaving lik tis for few days d....

dont kno d reason...

do i need any sleeping pills??

hmm...im wondering...

im getting serious now...

wat 2 do...

wat 2 do..??

i oso dont kno...

im so death....

y m i crying??

i really dont kno d reason...

can anybody tel me??

im nt happy at all...

i been wearing a mask..

really!!bt who kno tat??

i laugh really means im happy??

i dont kno...

feel lik crying since long time ago...

bt dont kno y d tears never cum out...

now wat happened 2 me??

crying 4 wat??

IDIOT!!

crying 4 nth...

long time didnt update my blog d...

lazy 2 do so...

coz...everythg make me feel so sad...

i really hate tis yr 2010...

i never been so bad mood b4...

haih...jz wanna tel my darling...

no matter how i change...

my love toward thm will never changed...

i still care for thm so much...

i really cherish the friendship wit thm...

i kno i changed lot...

bt there is nothing could make me bac 2 the gal u used 2 kno b4...

if could rewind the time again...

i would still club...

bt i wont say those harsh word 2 hurt u all...

really...i promised myself wont let myself get drunk again...

wat i do is just sitting ther n drink plain water only...

u will never believe rite...haih...

i go ther 4 the songs...not the liquor...

as for y i drunk last time...i wont explain anymore...

n dont worry about me....

i kno wat im really doing...

to those who i care...

speechless...

why u just cant really understand my meaning??

dont always misunderstand my word...

since u all dont believe me...

i just really couldn't found any reason 2 go bac...

hav u ever ask me y i went ther??

hav u ever ask me y i drunk??

u never ask me y n just jump 2 ur own conclusion...

i kno im changed....

im trying very hard 2 changed bac...

bt can anyone tel me how??

answer me pls!!!

dont just keep silent...

i kno wat im doin!!

i kno wat i can do n wat i cant!!

would u just believe me??

wat i nit is just trust!!!

trust me pls!!!

i kno some of my word may hurt u...

bt do u realise wat kind of feeling im having whn im writting those word??

im hurt 2!!

y i care those word u said 2 me if i treat u as a NORMAL friends??

tat's y everythg u said is hurting me!!

i kno u meant well...

i kno u oso care 4 me...

i treasure our friendship...

bt wat u make me feel is v r just a stranger...

nothing else...

hope our friendship is nt as fragile as u think....................

my new friends....

recently i found a two very good friends...

although they are slightly older than us,

bt they treat us really good....

1 is jason Yi,n the other is...

"chin pok pok"which we address him as "papa"...

jason really treat us lik his own sister n...

cpp(papa) treat us lik his own daughter....

sometime is a really good 2 hav such a nic friend in a unfamiliar place...

because they really dote on us...

i kno v jz kno them 4 about 3 weeks...

everyone sure will said v just kno them 4 3 weeks only...

how v kno whether they are really good o bad...

bt v are d 1 who feel them...

n v kno they are really true...

and because of them i experience lot...

v celeb our christmas eve 2gether....

v hang out 2gether....i really enjoy it...xixi~~

and many more those i could never experience if i didnt kno them...

i really appreciate 2 kno them at "such" place n become so close suddenly....

thank god i kno them here...i love thm so................much...ahaha...

sometime is really good 2 stay at home alone...

coz no nit 2 care abt anythg...

jz do watever i lik...

bt feeling dizzy is nt a really good feeling...

never wash so many clothes b4...

some more hand gonna patah d...

damn pain lo...omg...

sry 4 nt goin out with u gals...

really dont wish 2 go out that often...

coz left nt much money d...

some more feeling damn dizzy nw...

dont wanna over budget every month...really...

haih...suddenly miss u all so much...

miss my family...miss my gang...

miss those memories...

i miss everythg...u kno??haih...

guilty....

guilty...

guilty...

tel pin my result jz nw...

tot she will giv me a scold...

n disappointed v me...

bt she didnt...

she still console me...

cgpa 2.27...nearly failed...

wat a suck result...

dont really kno wat im doin...

i really wish thy could giv me a scold...

n i wont feel so guilty...haih...

2nd sem...

must work more harder...

cgpa nonit more thn three..

bt at least better thn tis...

pls...work more harder...

LEE WEI JUN!!